On an early evening stopover at a favourite library, a few weeks ago, I borrowed a rather unusual book. Unusual because the odds of someone like me picking up a book like that is tremendously slim.
This is not really my kind of book I thought. What made me pick it up? The rather attractive cover perhaps. The title Lives in the Shadow hinting at divulged secrets perhaps. Again, I am not much of a scandal relishing reader. I prefer bland ruminations, chilly prose and dry sarcasm; dripping bits of venom are more likely to be found in my garbage bin. So why did I pick that book? Like many other pointless exercises that are best ignored for better ones, I gave up looking for a likely reason why I found myself at home, curled on a much-abused bean bag, reading Lives in the Shadow with J Krishnamurti (LitS) moments after I returned from the library.

It is good to be unable to predict your own self at times; to be led on a journey that you had no clue you were, or you wanted to be, a part of. I must confess I had the vaguest idea of JK's teachings before LitS. Not that I have a better idea of the teachings now, but what this book has done for me is to show me JK as a person who had distinct private and public lives. It is interesting how spiritual teachers are expected to be super-selves sans any failings; any seeming slip is viewed with disbelief and always interpreted by devotees as a hidden lesson in spiritual advancement! Given such a state of affairs, it is rare that insightful books can be written about any popular (no matter how arcane or trite the teachings may seem) spiritual teacher.
Radha Rajagopal Sloss's LitS is
different from other biographies in this important aspect - her insights about JK have been based on impressions of several incidents that she witnessed over a number of years. LitS is in fact a biography of three people - the handsome Indian philosopher
Jiddu Krishnamurti; his editor, associate and back-bone Rajagopal (Radha's father); his friend, brother's girlfriend and lover Rosalind Rajagopal (Radha's mother). Radha grew up having three adults oversee her activities.
But nothing about our life seemed peculiar to me, even later when some of my school friends hinted that it was...
I was very proud to say that as well as a Mummy and a Daddy I had a Krinsh, which was something no one else seemed to have.
Written with a sense of love and balance, Radha's book does not judge the lives of JK or Rosalind or Raja. Instead it explains daily life in the Ojai valley, the talks of JK (referred to as Krishna or Krinsh), JK's trips abroad, Raja's effective management skills, Rosalind's positive spirit, the various friends whose lives crossed theirs, JK's and Rosalind's twenty-five year long affair and the difficult relationship between JK and the Theosophical society.
LitS became a controversial book when it was first released in 1991 because it revealed aspects of JK's personal life that were unknown upto that point. Among JK's followers and admirers, it created quite a stir. Some related stuff
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This is one book I did not want to finish reading; it was such a captivating experience that I wanted it to go on and on. I'd recommend this book to any avid reader. Truly one of the best I've read in recent times.